im not a mind reader
i can't tell whether you are happy or not
when you smile and say fine
i cant tell whether its okay for me
to do what i do and to say what i say
i need more than a smile
i need more than a nod
i need more than just some emoticon
to really understand what you feel
what you need

im not a mind reader
so just tell me out loud
let me have it harsh and cold
cause i deserve to know
cause i'd do the same for you
cause you know its true...
that i wouldn't do anything
if it were to hurt you...
as long as you tell me
and you let me know..

cause...
im not a mind reader...
and i can't feel the psychic vibes from so far...

photo cred : Innocence by RedSigns

The feeling of want..of need...that you cannot be satisfied...that you cannot walk this earth again the same way if not given the scent of what your heart aches for...it desires for....

This feeling grows...it consumes...and there is no end to it...for a desire can never be satisfied...you can never have enough of it..call it an addiction if you may, but to those who has ever gotten a taste of it...an addiction is like having a sweet tooth compared...

Desires rage fire...and throws itself into the iciest of cold...and there it rages fire again...the mixture of hot and cold...eventually eats one another...and leave the dead marks of satisfaction...and the desire fulfilled...yet longing for another battle to be fought...

And then there is the desire most want...the desire to be desired...to have a man tremble in front of your eyes...to see the rage of fire in his eyes..which looks like it would consume him, lest he was unable to touch you...we have heard the fables...read the stories...where the mere revealing of a hand of a geisha or the caressing of the neck of some woman in the medieval times would ignite a man's passion beyond what words he could say...and his hands tremble to touch her...as though she was sacred...as though touching her was a pleasure he could not have...

What i hold between my thighs...and within my bosoms..is sacred..it is sacred because i believe it to be..and i desire to be desired for what i have...for being a woman..and i desire to be looked at with lust even with my body hidden and hands crossed upon my lap...for i am a woman...and my body...my mind...my soul is mine to hold..and mine to give..

i do understand, that some of you may think that what i have written is too mature or pornographic for me to write..so to all of them, im just gonna act real immature, and tell them to fuck off... :)

photo credits : Desire by xequemate

cry baby cry
little demons are here tonight
to take you into nightmares
you wouldnt have thought of
to take up your innocence
and rid you of sanity
to light up the devil's lair
with your eyes tonight
to creep up you back
and send bumps down the spine
to take away the purity
and honesty in your prayer
and sprinkle the devils dust
upon your feet's bare

i realised i blog only when i'm pissed or really really depressed...andi'm not sure whether its healthy or not...but...whatever gets me goin right? so, this one is so that i'm not labelled as some emo kid who writes poetry that would make Shakespeare raise from the dead just to kill me.. :) see? im not so bad..and not depressed! anyways, here's the 20 random facts about me! (sorry about the delay..i dint see it...sorta.. :P)

here goes:

1. i am a car-maniac...love cars...and currently in lust (my true love is the porsche cerrara GT) with the black toyota celica in male'
2. Jack-In-The-Box freaks me out
3. i am a Paulo Coelho fan..obsessed with his books actually...and his blog...(no, im not stalkin him :P)
4. i love abstract art..i dont really see the point in most of Michelangle, da Vinci and Rubens work...its already there and much better..why paint it again?..
5. My favourite teacher was Ms.Risala who was my teacher for 2 years (grade 1 & 2) She helped me outta my shell and was basiclaly awsome.. :)
6. I would never get an abortion but i'm prochoice. I'm not gay, but gay people don't bother me. period.
7. I want to live in Dubai..and i want to have apartments of my own in atleast 3 countries. (a girl can dream :D)
8. If it wasn't for religious restrictions i would get a tattoo (a tiny one)..and a navel piercing
9. i hate re-mix songs...the original is always better
10. i procrastinate...soo..much...
11. i have never broken a bone in my body. but there is not a single part of my arms and legs that had not been bruised in someway.. :p
12. I sleep on the phone..been a habit since grade nine...and i can pretty much sleep through anything and in any position..my weirdest one yet was sleepin on my nose while finishin my math homework
13. i hate ironing...most of the time,i just wear stuff..they are bound to get creased anyways, right?
14. Im currently watching the following series : 70s show, greys anatomy and private practice..and i end up confusin private practice with greys cux adison is in both! O_O
15. most of my jewelery consist of stuff that have sentimental value more than stuff that i actually wear..the same goes with the teddy bears, clothes, cosmetics and books
16. i have an obsession with cutting hair..i cant go without cuttin it..*snip* *snip*
17. even though im a lazy arse, i hate stayin home and doing nuthin..infact, i can't stand it..im a lazy workaholic (if thats possible :P)
18. my laptop is always beside me when i sleep..its my 'bahdha baales' :P
19. the highest play count recieved in my itunes player is for Bang Bang Mystery Man by Tommi Inkila..
20. I'm a rainy day person...definitely not a sunny day person..!

fudge!! i forgot to tag!!!

here goes: i tag...umm.. i-ecco, black orchid, silent smurrfs, silvertm