Joel: I can't see anything that I don't like about you.
Clementine: But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored
with you and feel trapped because that's what happens with me.
Joel: Okay.
Clementine: [pauses] Okay.

From the script of :
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind 2004

im not a mind reader
i can't tell whether you are happy or not
when you smile and say fine
i cant tell whether its okay for me
to do what i do and to say what i say
i need more than a smile
i need more than a nod
i need more than just some emoticon
to really understand what you feel
what you need

im not a mind reader
so just tell me out loud
let me have it harsh and cold
cause i deserve to know
cause i'd do the same for you
cause you know its true...
that i wouldn't do anything
if it were to hurt you...
as long as you tell me
and you let me know..

cause...
im not a mind reader...
and i can't feel the psychic vibes from so far...

photo cred : Innocence by RedSigns

girl: no!

guy: yes

girl: no..

guy: yes

girl: maybe..

guy: yes

girl: yes?

guy: yes..

girl: yes

guy: yes!

hey ya all...

this is not one of those psycho-ish, beykaaru, hama nujehey stuff that i normally write...this is just a lil NOTICE to anybody who visits this blog in the near future...

i have been rather dumb and exceeded my net limit by downloading way too many stuff..(c'mon, who could just sit and stare while they released prison break finale and heroes and....you get the picure :P) so...this means that i shouldn't and cannot net ah vananings (oh da humanity!! )

anyways, this also means i wont be blogging for atleast a month or so..plus with the tests already here..this just might be a nubai minvarakun heyo minvareh negeyne kameh (as my islam teacher used to say)

so to all readers and (if any) followers...g'luck for the next few weeks of your life...and take care... and i guess i'll be back in the blogosphere after june to check out all the blogs and get back to all this again... :)

*hugs*

oh so thats why..... -_-

this was just a random converstaion i had with a friend of mine... and i managed to utter the words.. "im totally bloggin about this afterwards" so here goes :P

Birdeee : Why the hell are lovebirds called LOVEbirds???

Me : Err....i dunno...cux they are in love with each other.. *goes dreamy eyed*...

Birdee : You know what i think?

Me : Mmmm...? *still dreamy eyed*

Birdee : I think they are just forced to be together!!...cux they are trapped in a cage...TOGETHER!! all the TIME!!....and this lil kid comes around all the time and pokes them....!

Me : *all lovey dovey dreams shattered*....*sigh*...i'm so bloggin about this....

days keep passing by without so much as a letter put in here...i suppose i have been 'busy' with the tests and all the political hassle..really dint know what to write about and what not to..

but right now...now that i have actually took some time to actually bother (reason: tomrw is maths test...and i hate maths) i have nothing to say. My mind went completely blank (except for the trignometric graphs which just wudnt leave...*sigh*)

all in all, these past few weeks have been pretty gloomy and yet indulging at the same time. not sure that its possible?...well, me neither...but seeing is believing right? :P

i had been meaning to ramble somthing in here about the political shenanigans occuring in the country but somehow i felt quite seperated from it...UNTIL....they painted the house in BLUE and opened a friggin 'jagaha' infront of my house...aaah...such beautiful melodies you can hear from the places (im being sacrastic)...and the sights are quite daunting too..i think i managed to get a good look at maummon's baldy head from overhead...seriously, the thing just sparkles in sunlight! O_O

anyways, i feel like i have been personally assaulted way too many times for me to take this sitting down... -.- so ....we'll see what i do ..wish me luck :P

while we are on the topic of the famous bald one, one cannot stop oneself from thinking the inevitable; why him again? hasn't he done enough for our 'gaum'..this country doesn't need another 5 years of chaos. it needs change. it needs to realise that a bridge is not going to solve anything...that is, in the unlikely event that a bridge magically appears. there is no possiblity to make a bridge in the seabed of this country (scientifically proven!). the seabed is too soft and the sea too shallow. to make a bridge that would withstand all the obstacles that is gonna come across would take a hell of money out of the country's treasury! ofcourse, since building the friggin bridge is wayyyy more important than...let me think...hmmm....fresh water and living necessaties for our dear citizens?? ofcourse it is! *eye roll*

more than that, what i really really don't understand from these baldy fans is just one thing. They all accept that maumoon dint do a veyr good job with the country in the past THIRTY (hehe cudnt help that :P) years..but yet...baldy doesn't even have to apologize...talk about egoistic O_O a small 'im sorry' would have been fine..but NO...hes wayyy above it all, isnt he?..

sheesh...

Can you believe I spent the entire day in IGM hospital???

Seriously!! …and all this to do 2 tests..!!!

I actually went there yesterday too. But since the tests I needed done were instructed by ADK they also needed some other papers as well (my bad..should have brought all the papers dho?) but they made us sit there for around 2 hrs before telling us..*eye roll*

And today was worse..we went there at around noon..(with all the papers…ain’t I good?) but ofcourse that wouldn’t be enough would it? No, no, nooo.. we have to get photocopies of it to them…and so me and my mum dragged ourselves around maafanu trying to find a photocopying service…and being the everchanging and ‘modern’ place Male’ is…there wasn’t one.

So we finally drove to galolhu..got the copies and gave them to the laboratory peeps..i figured that should do it right?..No, no, nooo…we had to fill another form..get a patient card (I am NOT a patient, I yell inside my head) and dhen after all that we got the bill for the tests..and they didn’t have a card jaha thingy..(my mood eygadeega: really pissed off and nidhiburanthi) ..thankfully my mum managed to scrap out the cash from her purse..

after another 15 minutes sitting outside the laboratory we were let in, and the girl there took blood…in the freakiest way I have ever seen O_O …hama asluves…first they couldn’t find a naaru in my arm so they stuck it in my hand…when the blood didn’t flow…she pumped the blood out of the hand!!..i mean, like literally pumped it athah fihthaigen! Hehe…was really funny though…

Dhen rulhi aima bunaane rulhi aee yei..

Rulhi aisgen blog kureema bunaame blog kureeyei..

Ekamu mee dhen kuda kamehtha?...*bo halaak*

(THINK THIS POST CONTAINS EXPLICIT CONTENT...DON’T VIEW IF YOU ARE umm... YOUNG)

Don’t say I didn’t warn you…

This was completely coincidental..ekamu ves women’s day a gulhigen I incidentally watched a very heart wrenchingly thadhuvethi movie…the most captivating part of it was that it was actually based one a true story (later on I came to know that the actual story was much more horrific O_O)

Here’s a kuda overview of what it was about:

(teet..teet…spoiler alert)

After they loose their parents to a car accident, Meg and Susan Loghlin are forced to live with their aunt (called Ruth Chandler)…Ruth has this freakishly psychotic dislike towards girls (especially the two) and seems to enjoy having the whole of the neighborhoods kids(and I mean KIDS!) over at her place drinking beer and smoking..Ruth’s dislike grows more apparent when the alcoholic Ruth soon starts to abuse the sisters, which ends with physical torture and sexual abuse of Meg imprisoned in the basement. Ruth and the neighborhood kids join up to make this game in which each thinks up ways of torturing the girls. The movie is viewed from the eyes o f the only sane kid on the neighborhood, David Moran…and focuses on his attempt to save the two sisters…

Quotes from the movie:

Ruth: …(to the kids)take a lesson boys, now listen up close. This is important. All you gotta do is be nice to a woman..and she’ll do all sorts of good things for you…***…promise them a little something and you can have whatever you want, half the time…***…(gives back Meg the painting she made for David)..take it back…and I hope this painting is all you have given him..cuz you already got what men want right down there…*grins*..and it ain’t your god damn artwork..!

Ruth: If I see any slutting around here…Your ass is grass…And your aunty Ruth’s the lawn mower...

David: I can’t make them stop..you know.. I would if I could…

Ruth: ..(after etching the words “I f*ck. F*ck me" on Meg’s stomach)..You see Meggy?..Now you won’t have to get married…can’t take your clothes off…not for anybody… You are better off…no man would want you…won’t have the burden of kids…you are lucky…you thought it was good to be cute…to be sexy..a woman is better off loathsome in this world..

Ruth’s Kid1: You are right mum…she ain’t so much anymore…

Ruth: Wait a minute…we’ve got her so..no man will ever want her… Problem is, see (lights up cig)..Meg may still want him…life of torment there…a woman doesn’t want a man all over her body…no…she just wants him in one particular place…***…you take out that spot, you know what happens? You take out all of her desire…you take it out forever..it works…***…we just take out that one little spot…we’ll burn it out…*smiles*..and then our Meg would be perfect..!

(teet..teet…end of spoiler alert)

The movie is much more horrific and disturbing…And makes you really just, loathe people…makes you realise what a sick bunch human beings really are...

You could see the real story this movie is based upon in here.

yesh...there are people like that..

cruel cruel people....

*sniff*

who take away stuff that means soo much to you...

how could they??

it was so pretty...

and so nice...

so wonderful....

and with all those pretty pictures on the right corner..

and those long nights of mindless chatter...

all gone..

all taken away...

how could you??

and all those emotions...

that i had saved...

and my name..

my identity..

why did they take it away?

still confused?

yesh...you guessed wrong...

they stole my mail add...

mean people..

*sniff*

anybody out there who can make it all better?
:(

(pic: i have no idea where i got it from...was just googling...)

Chapter 1 : day of the freaky firihenun..

It all began on a seemingly normal day of us .. me, sponge and the nut .. tryin on clothes in sponge’s house in vilingili ..WORD.. then we kinda sorta like umm…errr…went out of words to write on our bloggies…we still dnt..and then v kinda did think of a couple of words..yay! *hug*.. WORD… ok, here goes… we three went out with our own personal photographer *wiggle eyebrow* to take pics of us…*snicker* *snicker*…(I know…self obsessed :P)

ANYWAYS…we were at the beach taking pics near the gaathah…completely minding our own business…

WHEN WE WERE AMBUSHED!!! *gasp*!!!

6 male people ambushed us with weapons of mass reputation destruction…PHOTO NEGEY PHONES!!!..asluves eyy…. They completely covered all the angles in our base and even shoved the phones at our faces!!...even when we turned around..*sniff*..hayaai kuda dho?? O_O we quickly went away from there, and the male people climbed the ‘mountain’ and took MORE pics of us as we walked away…tsk tsk..(when will they be satisfied?) Now, us being loya civil citizens of this great nation, we decided it was our duty to report these unauthorized violators of our visual rights..so we took a couple of pics of them as well… and being the hayai kuda people they are…THEY DID THIS!!...

*eye roll*

See the guy coming down … HE’S CHASIN US!!! *gasp* so then we RAN!!! We went back to og’s place n got our stuff and got the hell out of vilingili .. lookin behind our shoulders the whole time!!... * shudder *

Well, if that wasn’t enough .. we reached male’ and was tryin to get a taxi … and the first one which stopped had THREE GUYS in it .. who actually thought we wud get into the taxi with them !!!... idiots…*eye roll*..the second taxi seemed very harmless ..there was this middle aged smiley driver .. all jolly and freakishly happy .. we got in and he starts talkin ..

Him: thin kudhin konthaakah dhanee?
Us: umm…(arikko’s place)..near (big, important place)
Him: Oh..hehe..Kokkomen beynun thaakah gengosdhevidhaane.. *seductive grin* Beybe ah ingey Vaadhevilla and (bunch of other houses)
Us: Errr…ok…
Him: Kokko men varah lasvegen that hi dhanee?
Us: No..not really…*still confoooosed*
Him: Beybe geyah kudakoh madu kohlan vegen..beybe ge dharifulhu gulhaathive..thivaruge kujje beybe g eves hureyei…
Us: Umm…ok…
Him: Great..
Us: Errr…
Him: Kokkomenah ingeytha mi kaakukan?..
Us: Kuda koh dhanna vatharu jahaa..
Him: Beybe ves ulhuneemey vilingili ga…Thankolheh kurin..Hagu ambi vilingiyah laaigen..actually dhen vagu ambi dho??...4 months vandhen ulhunemey…yada yada yada vagu ambi yada yada….
Us: Err….(starts getting uncomfy)

(Parked near house..his..O_O)

Him: Miananee ingey varah avahah dharifulhu kairi goslaafa.. Nudhahchey..(leaves…)
Us: Lets run…!!!!!!
Us: No…Yes…Maybe…What if somebody sees us..? What if he sees us?..yada yada…Pay and run…yada yada..

(Actually we decided to stay so that we can thoroughly study this freaky specimen of the male species)

Him: (comes back).. Hinga dho dhama..

..he enters the car...and...HE SMELLED..OF ALCOHOL!!!!!!!!!!! HONEST!!!!!!!!...(the things that happen to us…*shakes head and looks up at the sky*…*shakes head again*

Us: (whispering)..what are we to do…?
Us: (pretends to call mums and dads so that he will overhear and realize that we do have family who will miss us after he rapes us + kills us +buries our bodies in Sultan Park…
Him: *evil maniac laugh*
Him: yada yada yada…3 dhooni…yada yada 3 boh…3 boh..yada yada yada

finally reached near home…we took a pic inside the car…and the car number is _5_7 (the dashes are there to protect the identity of the individual)

Chapter 2: Prom Night 08’

I wasn’t really expecting myself to end up in a prom on the night of my birthday, but a friend of mine kinda asked me very nicely n loabilly…so I couldn’t say no…Thus, I had a date for the prom..(well, actually A prom cuz I had no idea what was goin on..)

And I wasn’t actually going to go all pretty or anything..but I ‘had a load of pressure on me to be the prettiest girl in there'..and so this is just a lil thank you to my disaster crew who helped me get all pretty… THANKS YOU GUYS… and also to Homo…it was fun and I did enjoy it… :)

Chapter 3: The sleepover/ 00:00 – 12:00 of my b’day

Me, sponge and the nut were sleeping over at my place so pretty much every one was in da house AT THE HOUR…I got 17 pretty presents from my mummy…all of them amazingly aryjish..we went to thai wok for a family dinner..just the four of us..*sigh* i even got a cake that said “you’r 17”…like I needed to be reminded that I was getting old and wrinkled… *sniff* :P

All in all, it was a totally ogalicious b’day/day before b’day!...thanks to everybody who wished me and for all the prezzies that I got…*happy tears*… especially to my 2 oggies; sponge and nut…and my thweeth fai ‘dhatha’ :P.. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!....honestly…and thanks again…until next year…’birthday girl arykko’ has left the building…*drum roll*…