Umm…those of you who wish not to see the inauspicious side of me should refrain from reading the rest of this post..


Ok, here goes nothing..

I admit it..i am a fully transformed wreck. I am physically, psychologically and every-logically confused and I have no idea where my life is heading…or even where I am right now. The confusion has spread through me completely and I don’t even know what my life means anymore. The definitions they provide are so meaningless and vulgar.. things I just cant find a grasp of… the attitude, the culture. the life I am being bent down to live is nothing but pointless materialism..

Losing faith so easily..i have so many questions.. but asking them isn’t possible either.. so I lay here.. dwelling in my thoughts…until I reach a stage where I no longer understand what I need, what I want or what I posess.. and all that remains is a hurtful emptiness…

Everyday…I see them from the distance…I try to understand… don’t they question? Don’t they feel the confusion that we are heading towards?... I see religious fanatics and atheists…Goths and hippies… Kings and peasants… I wonder what drives them to the edges of the chain… and I ponder on how they manage to look at the world in such a single point of view…

Everlasting uncertainty… perhaps my questions should not be thought of..maybe my realm of wisdom is just in my own mind's eye.. but even then..what is reality?.. :S


  • Radvixen | February 15, 2008 at 4:31 AM

    I can totally relate to this post. I dont know what else to say. But just wanted to comment saying that.

    Good luck to us, I guess?

  • oggy :) | February 16, 2008 at 9:55 AM

    watever happens ... dhahcheh jahaaleema itll be ok ... n alwayss remember .. four dhathi does not a goani make !!! ... yayy *hug* ...WORD...

  • Crimson Solace | October 12, 2008 at 11:33 AM

    I guess they do not question, because the world is better for them when they do not question....or perhaps they have faith that they are right...and the world will be a much better place if it can be shaped in there image.....some people are stupid...don't let it ever get you down....there are many people like us out there.....enough people I believe

  • Anonymous | June 9, 2012 at 12:52 PM

    ahh, dont fret about this world.. ur prob'ly better off thinking about the next one..

    seriously, 60 years tops and u are gone from here.problem solved.